Bretts Journal

i cant sleep
i cant eat
i cant think things through
i can complain a lot =p
I do love my friends
I like being Clean
I hate being Clean
I smoke to many fucking cigarettes
I definitively worry about what others think of me to much

ok all done lol

now time to finish packing for traverse city WORD!

hope everyone has a good break!

wow

i hate the old me why the fuck did you all talk to that kid what a shady motha fukka i think you all shoulda ganged up and beat my ass!!

i love the new me i fucking love life why did i ever do drugs wtf???
what a fucking loser oh yea i found me again in rehab i sware alot like a fucking salior
muahaha

now that im clean im looking forward to joining the airforce anbd being a poilet flying for some years and then finding a carrer in flying and make some mulah and find me a sexy stewertest ;)

i totaly forgot how much i love rock'n Roll GOD DAYUM raps cool but drums,guitars, n a voices are way fucking better!

you wanna know what band i love rite now lol

LIMPBIZKIT fuck yea bitches and fuck you if you dont like em cuz i think they are friggin shaweet


im really glad for al thats happend to me latley cuz im happy and like other ppl that i havent talked to in a long long time cuz i lost them when i lost myself are startn to talk to me agian! and that is amazing!

but ne ways they told me in rehab that i would come back home and like turn back into the kid that i was before i started usen i was like WTF are you fuckers talking about but ehh they are rite its odd as fuck i dislike rap i envy some shit i totaly forgot about flksadfjasd IM EXCITED SRY!!

oh yea school starts soon for me MONDAY ill see you all thurr nuggas im really scared and excited for that IF ONE MOTHER FUCKER OFFERS ME N DRUG UR GOING IN THE TRASH CAN NOT THE DRUGs U BITCH

mmk im done flappin my jaw muahaha flappin

well look at this this kid brett is back but who is brett you may ask yourself well talk to me now and youll find out im so sorry to all ive hurt FUCK YOU DRUGS FUCK YOU ALC for killing me fuck you for fucking up my life. what was i thinking i wasnt not at all damn it feels so good to be clean its fucked up how shitty i was man you know how much i cried in that mother fucking rehab place ALOT and i dont care to say that it doesnt make me any less or anything it was just away i had to deal with all my fucking emotions i sniffed and popped and drank away but there will and is pain there allways will be but im human i gotta deal with shit iaint no girly BRETT HELLO TIME TO DEAL WITH THAT THING CALLED LIFE oh hey life hjfksadjfklasdjfasdlk sorry im so hyper and excited rite now i miss everyone so much cant wait to see you all NO PARTYS NO BLUUNTS NO DRANKS for me ill be the fuckin cool kid with the pepsi!! :)




fsdahfsdajkfasdjkfsdajfsadj IM SO HAPPY TO BE BACK <<<<<<<<<<<<<3333333333333333

im off to rehab...


i love you guys and ill miss ya.


wish me luck

GAHHHH


GOIN TO TRAVERSE CITY TO HAVE AN AMAAZING FUCKING WEEKEND NO PARENTS NO CONTROLL JUST GETTIN WASTED WITH FRIENDS AND GOIN TO HOMECOMMING!!!! BITCHES WITH MY ASHLEIGH<3 WORD!!!!!!!!!!!!




FUCKIN PEACE OUT



=]

this birthday is just like all the other ones



a bunch of yelling and brett im not gonna be here for your bday but can you do this and that FUCK OFF


ne ways im 18 now so maybe my parents will by me the gun ive always wanted haha prob not

Chea


Homecoming 06. with ashleigh UPnorth this fuckin weekend bitches



djkflasdfjklsadflkjs cant wait time to get wasted and have lots of fun!



tizzle gon be wasssssTAD

I was bored in class and i have this cd with a bunch of rap instumentals so i kinda put what was on my mind on the paper.

Here i catch myself lookin out a brokiN window
To tell you the truths of it I dont see anywhere to go
Tizzle thinkin about tha ups,downs Smiles N Frowns
they way i see it, is that im a drug addict wit shit left
No more bright future for this falling star
yall dont get it there aint nothin near or far
example of the point im tryin to throw at yall
all i can do is sit here n wanna get down on a ball
That soft white
dat shit that meakes me all hype hype
shit even thinkin about dat brown boi
fuck one line from the boi just say nite nite
throw away them keys lock the door
turn off the bright light
like i said nite nite while that drug meuhh dont ask me a god damn fava
most days i stare at the walls in a noddin dazze
wounderN when Mommy N Daddy gonna praze
this human figue sittin below all the haze
the future life I dreamed about is Noting but a pain in tha shoulda
the addition is way more than just taken ova.

i really need to disappear for a long long longgkjlanalksdjfg FUCKINHG time i cant stand liven in my damn house ne more my parents are fucking killing me hardcore and my drug problems keep getting worse and worse i wish i could just i dont even know ne more mans...........................

what to do


im so lost and confused rite now and i need some help so baddfksdjafkls

i just made 500 bucks in 4 hours what to do hhmmmmm mall???


=]


i love my life now muahahahaah

I WANT ASFD FUCKING RONALD MC DONALD DOUBLE CHEESE BURGER LKJHFDKJF IWASNTED!

I love all my friends!


i miss alot too like mmh MEAT GIRL Laura!!! where have you been man!? i need yo numba fool!

oh and my last entry im sorry if i freakied ne one out but im not doin that shit it was a song i just felt like that you know eminem is a crazy fukka and thats why i like his lyrics so much cuz i can relate to it so wellsklfsjhdfkljhsadf


<3 great freaking mood last nite was awesome i was so drunk and i wasnt mean at all BUT MISS RACHEL LANE HIT ME IN MY FACE LIKE 8758975784 Times =]

dude what the duce?

outa nowhere i guess my parents are splittin up mmk..?

i moved away from traverse city to get away from home drama and i move here and it worse and im stuck till i move by myself and since im gonna be 18 soon i got alot of new shit ahead of me Air Force 0r Navy?? dno yet

you know what i just dont give a fuck ne more lol

at least scotty came to my rescue last nite with a dirty thirty that made my nite a lot better :) and seeing all my old friends that was shaweet!

haha and ive been listen to alot of eminem for a cure of my anger and its awesome >_

you know what i just came to realize that im goning to be 18 in 2 months thats crazy man...


well ill be goin up north with ashley this weekend that should be fun/interesting :)
its only for 3 days so i guess ill be able to stand her for that long :p
i just hope ill be wasted alot :D

i miss all my freaking friends from the past year i remember so much shit that was fun and alot of shit that wasnt ive lost alot of friends from shit thats so effing stupid but its for the best for me i guess keep me clean!!!!!!!!!!!


but ne whom im really bored....

mmh what a beautiful day
its freaking amazing LOTS OF SUN
a awesome breeze
it couldnt be n better well unless like my bff came to see me...
oh wait she is on her way :D

silly me >_<


i love bff days but today will be odd
me n ash gotta go see my family
this should be very interesting

I NEED PHONE NUMBERS I GOT MY NEW PHONE SO I DONT HAVE NE NUBER SO PLEASE IF U WOULD LEAVE ME SOME!!

This Is brett's Lil Bro On His Laptop Cuz I Inherited It And He left Himself LogedIn...
Anyway i Inherited it Because He Died...
He Was Sittin There..
Then Jst Died...
I Was Like...Dude!! You're Dead!!
Then His Ghost Was Like....DUDE!!! I Know!! Crazy Isn't It?!
I Was Like.. Yea.. So Whats it Like..
And he Said... Trippy As Hell!!
But I'm Gunna Go On My Journal So Peace!

~Tony

ok...


So i get wasted last nite i lose my phone... i get stung by a bee, i get a mohawk :p and my paretns found some things in my room that are not good at all... so i just got up and left the dinner table and now im on the computer awaiting MY DOOM but w/e it was worth it i had a great nite!!! i love all my friends joeys house was an awesome time! but now im fucked...